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Nuit of the oceans

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Voyager Queen of CupsToday after waking up and writing down my dream, before even pulling a card, I watched a sad sad clip from an online news paper of a whaleshark caught in a net. Seeing that amazing creature, dark skinned with stars across its body, like a Nuit of the oceans, made me weep a little. I went to national geographic website and found some more info and images of this largest fish on the planet (that we know of, there might be even more deep down the depths that we have not seen yet)

The card I pulled a few hours later was the Woman of Cups and it felt very right. She is connecting to the world with all her senses in this card, her emotions run deep. I had a talk with one of my neighbors today. The man next door has been gone a week or so partly due to the cold apartment but also cause he just been diagnosed with a new tumor in his brain. A month ago my cousin lost his daughter, just 27 years old. Friends online too are struggling with cancer. It all makes me so utterly sad and scared. My mom is a survivor, she had a radical mastectomy  a few years ago and is still very frail. I wish I could be more then I am, more of a support, a better daughter and friend.

 

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Worldly things

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Todays card was the Emperor. I woke up with a bad back and was first not in the mood to even pull a card. Sore and annoyed and edgy. This is not my favorite major by any means but I got nothing personal against him. One thing that caught my eye in this card was the sense of having the bigger picture, like that bold eagle, the emperor sees far. He is not too concerned with the little every day worldly things that occupy me these days though.

So I sat down with my morning tea, rubbed my back and looked close at this card. The two male faces, father and son, the eagle, twin towers, the golden chest, money, a whale (I liked that one, a symbol for the hidden emotional depths he has, as a partner to the more overtly expressive and emotional Empress) the really REALLY odd thing though was that it took me half a day to even see the hand holding the heap of dirt with a plant. Almost like my eyes refused to see it. Interesting for sure. Is it this hard for me to acknowledge that males can be nurturing?

And my sore back? Still sore and I am squirming a lot. It’s my old scoliosis that is back to haunt me due to the cold days. I’d like a sauna right about now, And some old fashioned massage.

Cold creeping in and then out.

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Voyager 8 of CupsTodays card is the 8 of Cups and the first thing my eye caught in this image was the frozen waterfall. It is a lot of decay here too, rotten leaves, dry caked mud, broken and glued together cups. Some things in life is best to discard, broken cups and dead flowers are among those. What things in my life do I try to glue together past their best-before date? What scabs do I keep picking at?

I got a lot of frozen emotions about my parents, my mom and I battle it out on a weekly basis, at least we keep things fresh and interesting. But with my dad – it is like that frozen waterfall. I won’t even cry about it. Haven’t for years, even while listening to his weeping on the phone once ever 3 years or so.

Time to drain that specific cup, wash it out and throw it away. Not my dad of course, but the lingering expectations I have of us ever resolving this cycle of false new starts and betrayals.

On the other hand the mailman was nice to me today. He knocked on my door and gave me 2 packages. One with a few books and a set of Fallen Angel cards from Amazon. And one pack with the Key to the Kingdom cards, a beautiful pristine first edition. I first saw them over at Cat’s place. I took one card right away and it was Jack of Spades and here is his verse:

Key to Kingdom jack of spades‘Look out! look out! Jack Frost is about’

No kidding. It is still cold here, not -30 like this weekend, more like -23. My landlord now got some heat going though, so the house is slowly getting warmer, but I can see my curtains swaying gently in the cold draft.

Growing up

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VoyagerTodays card was the 10 of Wands and in the Voyager that is a truly positive card. It’s not like this deck lacks shadows, it has plenty of more negative cards too. But here we don’t see someone struggle with too heavy burdens, we see things growing up as they should and that is a process that leaves marks, like the year-rings in a tree, or the wrinkles on a hand. But if we grow as we all should, and grow tall and proud and humble there is the promise of the blossom. Hands and roses, passing of time. What do we do with it all? Do I put my soul into what I do? Perhaps not as much as I could. What did I want to grow into? And is it all too late? Of course not, but I remember thinking it was all too late when I was in my 20:ies. I am in my 40:ies now and still got some growing up to do to come into my own as they say.

Text and music:
Karin Dreijer Andersson

When I grow up
I want to be a forester
Run through the moss on high heels
That’s what I’ll do
Throwing out boomerang
Waiting for it to come back to me

When I grow up
I want to live near the sea
Crab claws and bottles of rum
That’s what I’ll have
Staring at the seashell
Waiting for it to embrace me

I put my soul in what I do
Last night I drew a funny man
With dark eyes and a hanging tongue
It goes way bad
I never liked a sad look
From someone who wants to be loved by you

I’m very good with plants
When my friends are away
They let me keep the soil moist
On the seventh day I rest
For a minute or two
Then back on my feet and cry for you

You’ve got cucumbers on your eyes
Too much time spent on nothing
Waiting for a moment to arise
The face in the ceiling
And arms too long
I wait for him to catch me

Waiting for you to embrace me

Integrity and freezing my ass off

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VoyagerTodays card is the 9 of wands – Integrity. This is a perfect example on just how easy these cards really read once you get going. Without looking at the guide-book (that is more a lose leaf system fluttering all over my livingroom at the moment) I wrote the following into my journal.

‘Following my own path, break off from the flock mentality, have a back-bone, creating sacred space, sanctuary, nurturing creativity’

The intense cold spell we are having here is making me annoyed at everything and everyone. Right now I rather wish for 9 sticks of firewood then 9 wands on a tarot-card. But I guess my lesson for today is to demand my right to a warm apartment – that is my sacred space – to my landlord and really INSIST that he makes it bearable to live here. I am not one used to making demands or confront others unless I am really cornered. Well, today this cold has me cornered. It is hard to be kind and enlightened when freezing your bum off.

A week with Voyager

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It was most reluctantly I put away the Silicon Dawn tarot to pick a new weekly deck. This week it will be the Voyager Tarot. The deck is from 1986 and does feel a little dated on first glance. The cards are very large and got that sticky kind of lamination and broad borders. The guide book I got is falling apart in the back. I had this deck tucked away in the bottom of a large box with other ‘undesirables’ for a few years now. Recently it was brought up on the ATforum though. So when it came up in the random draw this week I decided to give it a go. It’s just a week after all. See here how prejudice I am already against this deck!

When I took it out last night I just went through the cards and sorted it into 2 piles, just at first glance. The + and the – pile. Oddly enough the + pile was more then 3/4 of the deck. I made a little deck interview spread with it. This is the cards I got:

Voyager - Child of Cups1. Tell me about yourself. What kind of deck are you? Child of Cups. This card is jammed packed with kids! Happy kids, sad kids, pensive kids, sleeping kids. It tells me this is a deck for curiously exploring emotions. Kids don’t hold back. They will test you and then give an instant verdict. They are open and spontaneous. They can be mesmerized by the tiniest details yet grasp the mood of any situation quickly.

 

 

 

Voyager - Hanged man2. How can I use Voyager for the best result? The Hanged man. This card was in the – pile. I look at it and feel really unsure. But I guess that is the point. What I get here is that I might simply need to twist and turn the cards around to really see the whole picture. To not let the amount of details overwhelm me. And to not be too much a prisoner of the guide-book.

 

 

Voyager - Sage of Worlds3. Outcome of working with Voyager. Sage of Worlds – Master. I doubt I will be a ‘Master’ in this Tarot (yeah, they actually have specific Voyager classes if you are so inclined) but it tells me that I will get what I put in. Question is – how much am I willing to put into it? That remains to be seen over the week to come.