Just the sun through the curtains on the floor…
Feels like summer is finally coming. Sitting on the balcony reading and sipping my coffee. I am taking a look at the Learning Lenormand book I just got. I have several Lenormands but never quite figured out how to use them. I think it is best to start with the ones that are really simple. I want to be able to tell what card it is just by a quick glance. And Chronatas Minute Lenormand is perfect for that!
Me and my mother got a complex relationship, but don’t we all? The other day she came over for coffee and a chat though and we really connected and could touch even on those painful spots we so often do anything to avoid. I got to say that I love her and respect her and that I forgiven and moved on. As I said it I could feel myself heal and I think she did too. It was a good talk. She is not a perfect mom, whatever that is, just as I am no perfect daughter. But we are enough.
This morning I was sick and feverish due to an infected tooth (going to the dentist monday) and still in bed when she came by with a bunch of cream-coloured roses. It sure made this day change direction. I got up from bed, put on coffee, started preparing dinner, opened the balcony door, got properly dressed and tuned in the World. I got a feeling if she didn’t bring me those roses, I would still lie in bed and feel sorry for myself. Thanks Mom!
Today’s card don’t need a tarot professional to read. It’s MOM! In her best aspect and also me in my best. Calm and beautiful, offering/receiving a cup filled with water from the heart. I also pulled 3 cards from Melissa Lenormand – second edition. And at least the last two are clear as day. Flowers + Lady. Not too sure on the Fish yet. I try to not read Lenormand as Tarot cause then I would focus on the stamps and the ‘gift’ aspect of that image.
I was feeling pretty good when the cat woke me up before 5am. I have this thing I do when he does that, I do an ‘intense-cuddling’ until he is fed up and then he go off to straighten his mushed up fur and let me sleep a little longer. I love living alone with just Charlie. So much cuteness and love for very little fuss.
Todays card from the Enochian Tarot is nr 46 HABIORO The First senior of Air. He looks like a suitor! Blond, with small wings and a short unassuming tunic. He is as down to earth as you can be when you are an angel and a senior of air and all that. Open smiling face. Holding a wand looking very phallic in one hand and in the other a red rose to his heart. He is taking a step towards me, but do I feel up to receiving that red rose? What if Love with Capital L knocked on the door? I got a feeling I would slam the door in that smiling face.I am too set in my ways, too comfortable to all of a sudden share my space and time and energy with someone else. To adjust to another body and another mind. That takes a lot of work! It is funny looking at this photo of this mornings card and my cup of tea and the cute little tin with the brand new Melissa Lenormand that just arrived earlier, that on my journal in the background, in bold letters of a cut up sticker is ‘Go beyond comfort’. I guess I need to work on that.
Oh and as a bonus here are the Melissa cards. So pretty!
The title refer to my dream of last night. I do try to always give my dreams a title, the cheesier the better.
I was inventing things. One of the things I was working with was a thing to help you lift those heavy iron grates you see on the roads where excess rainwater pours down. I was violently opposed while doing this invention by a team of researchers that questioned the very purpose of even doing this. The thing I invented was a large plate in metal with an engraving of a family, looking almost too happy and underneath was a clasping mechanism to clasp around the bars in the iron grate and somehow that engraving would give you the power needed to lift the heavy lid off. I was questioned about my reasons for inventing this thing, the reason to even go mucking about down there in the drainage but I felt it was very important, it was vital for me to have this tool because I needed to find something prescious, a little treasure I lost down there and so had many others too.
I wrote all this down in one long sentance after waking up. I had the image of a beautiful shining pearl, glowing softly in the mud deep down and I really needed to get it.
Right now my dreams are a lot closer then my cards. First card I pulled from the True Love Tarot was the Queen of shells. Hmm ok. Pretty lady surrounded by shells… It just left me cold. Next card, The Star. Another lady almost dropping her dress is blowing a horn. *yawn* but wait! There is something there, somehow the dark sun and moons, below the horizon, the bright star shining remind me of that feeling of seeing the pearl in the mud. You need darkness to find dreams and treasures. Sometimes, just a tiny bit of light is all you need.
Also did a practice draw with the Pixie Lenormand and got Key – Tree – Crossroad. Right now for me that reads as spiritual lesson, which is vague. I need to pick it down a notch, into real life. I need to think about that one some more…
jema 