Oracle of Initiation

A surprise package arrived yesterday/Monday, it was the Oracle of Initiation cards + book straight from the creator Mellissae Lucia with a sweet dedication. It’s a kit I wanted a long long time but never could afford but on Facebook Mellissae picked me out among all her fans The cards are large and glossy on the front and matte on the back, rounded corners and borderless with just a number and a title in the lower edge. The art is intuitive and evokes strong emotions. The book is big! 398 pages with the story of the artists process, tips on how to use the cards and a few pages for all the 66 cards. Interesting is that Mellissae invited others to contribute to it by their own reflections on the cards. This was a little about the kit. I will be using this one for at least a few weeks, first on its own and then perhaps pair it with a tarot.

The first card I drew was 45. Identify. It falls under ‘The gateway of Balance’ (all cards are ‘sorted’ under 8 different modes) I kind of got from this card a mutual checking each other out, the deck and me. Just who are you and how will we work together? ‘Claim your voice’ writes Lucia here and this card met me with a curiosity, an openness.

Reading in the book I especially loved the text by Hillary Raimo who write that: I stare around the corner of truth. Looking at you, waiting to be seen. I live within your own shadow. To find me is to find yourself… When you remember me I will be the warrior full born. Join me and you join yourself…”

Patterns

Just the sun through the curtains on the floor…

Feels like summer is finally coming. Sitting on the balcony reading and sipping my coffee. I am taking a look at the Learning Lenormand book I just got. I have several Lenormands but never quite figured out how to use them. I think it is best to start with the ones that are really simple. I want to be able to tell what card it is just by a quick glance. And Chronatas Minute Lenormand is perfect for that!

Books and cards

I decided to take 1 month off from the distraction that Facebook is. Most of it due to receiving a message from my biological father there that he was not interested in any kind of relationship with me on Facebook, he also already blocked me from his phone and his e-mail. I guess he wants me to travel the 850 or so kilometers to him? He never said. I got hurt and upset. I was already very depressed and for some reason this propelled my right out on the other side. I am all calm now, nothing can touch me.

The cards I used this week was the mottled in brown and green Secret Forest. I used it before and like the murky colours and the figures that you more guess at then make out clearly. It’s a mood-tarot. Just throw away the LWB and all meanings and step into the forest and hang out a while.

This time I only pulled a card when I felt for it and then left it out all week. By the end of the week (today) I still only got 3 cards but only took photos of these two due to poor lighting.

For the first I see a figure by a tough tree, digging into the mountain. It made me think of roots, and what holds me into place. The figure looks like she is ready for battle with spear and shield, or is this the moment just after the fight? The contemplation over just what she won or lost?

The second card is Temperance pouring and mixing and fixing and mending dividing and being way to preoccupied with getting it just right, making sure it is fair. It never ends though – the water in those cups, it is really overflowing just she cannot be SURE it is. She might run out…

 

I got a package with books today and that makes me feel like this weekend will be a GREAT one.

 

I had and read a few of the Proust earlier but this is the year I will finish them all

 

Trains in dreams

I dream of running in a dark intersection, on slippery asphalt, trying to catch a train. On my ticket is a clear description with a red dot for the next train depot but I can’t find it. I am finding receipts and coupons for stores that don’t exist here and for items I don’t need and can’t afford. I am having problems with reading the little map, what is map – what is the world, they melt and I am still walking really fast. I find myself in a small tarot-meeting, just people showing each other what they know and trying to learn and there I storm in, intent of ‘showing off’ with my deep experience and my large collection and at that same moment putting myself apart from the group and stopping my own learning. I start to mix up the decks, display rows of knights from different decks but none has anything to do with what is asked after. They are in 3-d but I still can’t see it, still mix up the symbol with the thing.

I am walking with a huge jar of jam, red like blood, and dream-trip and wake myself to not spill it – and I don’t spill it, but I also lose the jam.

Symbol – thing…

Dewey’s Read-a-Thon

1) What fine part of the world are you reading from today?

Skelleftehamn in the north of Sweden
2) Which book in your stack are you most looking forward to?

Finishing off some started books, like ‘The left hand of darkness’ and ‘Hard-boiled wonderland’
3) Which snack are you most looking forward to?

Popsicle!
4) Tell us a little something about yourself!

40+ swede living with a cat named Charlie. Loves to read tarot and books.
5) If you participated in the last read-a-thon, what’s one thing you’ll do different today? If this is your first read-a-thon, what are you most looking forward to?

Take it easy, rest my eyes now and then, get some fresh air, read a bit outside the box, books I wouldn’t normally pick.

From my lips to your ear

Today’s card is clearly one of communication. It is 6 of air and we have stepped off that damn boat now Ladies and Gentlemen. Or have we? Perhaps earth itself is the vehicle here. With his ass firmly planted someplace really cold a yellow man is embracing the open air. The Earth is sprouting swords but also pens! Quills pointing down and just below the floating sphere are what I first thought was some hieroglyphs but look close, it is a mouth connected to an ear.

So today I should try and stay aware on just how I communicate, is my voice like a persistent nagging mosquito, or do I perpetuate gossip? Do I speak clearly my mind, from my lips to your ear, or do I fall into that trap of thinking that you should bloody well read my mind (I do that at times)

I am in a reading cycle again. Right now reading ‘The left hand of darkness’ by Ursula K LeGuin and it is so good. I am also dreaming a lot and woke up from a most vivid dream feeling all numb and shivering cold then within a minute I was hot and sweaty. I remember reading that while in REM sleep your body has a hard time regulating your temperature and that was so true. As soon as I woke up some more I was back to normal. This is also why it is not good to have too hot (or too cold) in your bedroom, your body will then never enter proper REM sleep and we need that REM. Gimme some R-E-M!!

Closing with a rather dark but cosy photo of my bedroom, I just love the drapes.

Baths

Today’s card I also pulled for a friend last night. She was stressed out and filled with anxiety and needed some comfort and 9 of Water – Lake – Gaia came up. I gave her the simple advice to tap up a warm bath with sea-salt, submerge and listen to her breath and heartbeats. I find baths are good for substitute embraces, when there is no one there to hug you. Baths are rather good for crying a little too, let the tears and salt water merge and mingle. After a while you don’t need them tears.

Not everyone is a bath person. I usually prefer a shower myself for the basic need of getting clean. But there is a comfort in a bath that makes me hesitate to throw out the tub.